JUST ME (poem)

This time I want to see what happened after many years we were together as a real couple or since we were decided to be together.....

My name was still the same but my hobby was change too much.

Still like traveling but I never did it for relax again.... (actually travelling makes me fun and refresh before.... but now it makes me scare )

I have someone waiting for me and unluckly he hate traveling, so if I need to traveling I have to go alone and make it as faster as I can.

Still have my birthday but no happy birthday, no any birthday wishes also never ask for a present. No one pray for me anyway.... 

Still loved singing for someone but now I just singing for my self 

I used to have many loved.... but now my heart full of hate

I used to live with lot of energy..... spirit and powerful...

But now I feel empty, useless, and depressed

I was thinking that I am cinderella, the princess.... but now I know that I just Cinders, puppet, also a shield.

I used to be a flower, anything that everybody wanted, but now I become nobody, ignored, rejected.....

Actually I don't feel that I have a happy family. I just trying to look happy..... 
I can smile in my sadness or laughing while my heart crying

I don't know which wrong and right..... 
I just don't know everything anymore.....
also I don't know about my heart feeling anymore.... 
it is love or it is hate.... 
tell me what to do..... 
tell me what to say.... 
tell me anything .... save me.....